Depression: A Dark Matter akin to Dark Matter
As I left an allusion to the vastness of space in the name of this blog I thought I'd follow that vein to start with, and also write about the hardest thing I could think of. It relates to how people often think of depression as being void, much like the vacuum of space, yet if certain cosmological theories hold true that space is actually occupied by dark matter that causes most gravitational pull in the universe yet is hard to measure or observe. Rather than undermining the metaphor of depression being like that void I think it's actually a better description of what the underlying experience of the condition can be like, at least for me. When I was at my worst - inconsolable, desperate and alone - I saw things. They weren't real of course, but they were there. I don't think they had the stability to be understood as full-blown hallucinations(I could certainly distinguish their surrealism for what it was), rather they were a vivid envisioning of the fluctuation be